Lauren,
I'm going to start off with apologizing for the mopiness with my last letter, I can be a bit of a wuss sometimes and I get really homesick being down here away from everybody.
So, my day today was just plain awful. We couldn't seem to get anything right, the it really came back and bit us in the butt. I actually got a letter from you today, but we're not allowed to open them yet because we haven't earned it. We did get our name tapes and name badges, but we had to earn those before we actually got them.
We're losing about four more trainees to being recycled (I looked this up... it means they're sent backwards to re-do a certain portion of Basic Training... in other words, they're held back) One of them Hechen Bach, we all want to fight for. The kid messes up so much, but every time, he will pick himself right back up and try again. The others, however, either just don't put out an effort or expect the service to change for them. They're the ones we're not so upset about.
So anywho, we got to watch 8th weekers march again, then we learned several new moves. They weren't hard to learn, it's just when you have to do them at full speed that the chaos with just learning them hits. So while attempting to march back to the dorm while clumsily applying the new techniques, our T.I just about lost it, in which his impatience just slowly built up throughout the course of the day, when finally he gave up and made us beat our faces (doing a set # of push-ups) a total of 4 times, all in a very short amount of time, which just plain stunk.
I really want nothing more than to finish here and just leave. What I didn't realize, was it you get hurt here AND they can fix you, then you stay here until you're better, then you finish training. There is a 2nd weeker who has been here 1 1/2 years because he tore his ACL and just now fully healed from it. I make sure to pray every night for Gad to watch over me and my physical health so the same doesn't happen to me.
That is the one upside to this place... it really has brought me closer to God. It's been a huge encouragement to feel like he's with me here every step of the way. But I am going to sign off on this letter, tomorrow is yet another run day, and I haven't feel very well, so I don't want to risk getting sick. I've had two songs stuck in my head all day today that I'll leave you with. One is "Hands Down" by Dashboard Confessional, and the other is "Living in Your Letters," also by Dashboard Confessional. The second one goes something like this:
"Breathe, deeply from the envelope
it smells like you and I can't
Breathe without this scent it's
filling me with all you mean to me.
To me."
-Bailey
P.S. I've now got 3... (he then crossed out that number) 4 snorers sleeping around me.
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